My life in a tunnel...

This week has been really hard. It started over a week ago when I had this ringing in my ears that made it really hard to hear. It was very frustrating and I just kept hoping that it would go away, by Thursday I finally called a ENT specialist to see if I could get in, they said that it would be a week, but what could I do so I made and appointment and hoped that I wouldn't go crazy before then, well, the ringing went away that day and I was hearing just fine. Then later that night my hearing just slowly started to go away. Friday morning I could hardly hear a thing, I emailed my mom in a panic knowing that moms can produce miracles and she got me in to see a doctor that morning, I was soo happy and scared at the same time, I was not sure what was going to happen to me. I ended up having a hearing test and found out that I had sever hearing loss in my left ear(I have been deaf in my right ear since I was a baby). The doctor explained that this is not uncommon and that it is treated with steroids, and that sometimes from two weeks to two months to work. I am not sure I am prepared to handle this for the long hall...I know that we all have trials but when your trial is one of your biggest fears in life it really seems unbearable. The steroids make me cranky and sick, I am depressed, I pray that I can handle this with the faith that I know I need to have. I am so grateful to have a husband that cares so much for me and who will still try and talk to me even though half the time he has to repeat himself. I am so happy to have a baby who doesn't care that I can't hear him and who loves me anyway.